Oh what a day!!!

Hey everyone!! Im doing a hen tree - I am coz Sara said I shud!

I got me a new job today!!! Yay I did!! A beautiful lil country village school and they want me!! Me!!!! Whoooooo! Im so pleased!

I had the interview this morning - first of all two lovely children took me round on a tour of the school - I so enjoyed it. They were fantastic kids! Then I had to sit with a group of children, one being the little boy I will be supporting and we did an activity together for about ten minutes! The little boy that I will be working with tried to give me a kiss when I left him!! AWWWWW!!
Then I had the interview, lots of questions to answer and I was able to answer them all! I was so so nervous though and my mouth went dry. They kindly had water readily available - I thought that was nice - never known that before at an interview - coz your mouth does go dry with nerves!

It's such a lovely school - it's a teacher's dream of a school! It's only got about 20 children in each class and only has four classes! Its a very old victorian school and it is run by Church of England and the lovely church is just opposite the school. The school hall is the village community hall! It's just so lovely!

I know the teacher too! She is really lovely and I worked with her at Robsack Wood - and my boys had her as a teacher when they were little - they love her too! She said I was her first choice and that she has never seen little Callum try to kiss anyone before - she said that he has chosen me too!

I will be looking after two little boys - I didnt meet the other boy - he has autism, Callum has speech and language, communication problems. Awwwww he was lovely. Im so so pleased! I am, I am!!!

Oh, and I have a new hair do!!!!

Laine xxxxx

Part two - job loss

Anyway, what was I saying. Oh yeah, right so here I am at the office on my own as everyone else had gone home, feeling very sorry for myself. Anyway, I got packed up pretty early and I left the office just before six, or so I thought! I did meet some visitors in the car park and took them to the bar. They were happy enough. I was just glad to get home and tell John all about my horrible day.

So we get to Tuesday. My boss wasnt there when I arrived and she had left me a really long complicated booking to do. Probably to see if I could cope with it or not! Anyway, on her desk was a not to say I had left at 5.45pm the night before. I put a little yellow sticky on saying, I left at two minutes to six with an exclamation mark. Oh dear, I was in trouble again. Then I said out loud to Gill, I think it's get at Laine week! Then I felt a bit fed up and kept makng mistakes. Some Sales guy phones up and actually got me to stupidly buy labels for the franking machine, I thought that the franking machine had some sort of service where we got the labels! When the invoice came in on the fax I was like, yikes! Ive been taken in by the sales guy. So I immediately rang them back to cancel and guess what???? The office was closed! What a surprise! Anyway, I faxed back the company and asked them to cancel the order. Then I left it on another colleagues desk so they could see what I had done the next morning.

So Wednesday morning comes! Im at my cleaning job and my mobile goes, it's my boss. The gentleman I clean for said use my phone Laine and phone her back. Well, she let rip into me didnt she!! She had a go at me for leaving early on the Monday, apparently everything went wrong and she had to be called and I was in big trouble. She told me I was unprofessional and people were still arriving and I shouldnt have left early! I said, sorry I wasnt myself, I didnt realise the time, she said to me that's something a child would say! She then told me off for leaving the note for Gill about the labels order! I said I didnt leave it for her to do - I left it to inform her what I had done. Then I had a lecture about how we shouldnt be taken in by Sales guys, etc. etc. She then said that I was out of order for texting the other co-worker regarding the misunderstanding about the swapped shifts etc. I was then told that the office wasnt a playground and that Im not to gossip. Im to stop messaging people. Im to stop talking to house-keeping and that I had said stuff that she had told me in confidence. She said she couldnt trust me anymore!! Honestly, thats not all of it! It goes on and on!!

When I came off the phone I was in floods of tears and shaking! How dare she speak to me like that! Fair enough I had made mistakes. Oh and remember I had said I think its get at Laine week, well that was reported back to her!

Anyway, I talked and talked to John about it and my friends. I was going to go back in on the Friday and just ignore it all. But on the Thursday I broke down - I was shaking and I couldnt eat.
I could not go back there! Not after all that was said. And what if another interview came up. How would I go and I didnt want to go through all that again! So I phoned up HR Manager, I couldnt talk as I was too upset. But John took the phone and he spoke instead. We sent in my letter of resignation and it said that my position in the office had become untenable. And as for my notice I was ill!

I really thought I would get a phone call from them. But nothing! Not a bean! So there you have it! Im out of work!

Phew! Sorry that was so long.

Laine xxxx

Here I am again

Here I am again! Bet you thought I wouldnt come back. Not sure whether to keep blogging or not! But hey whilst Im here pull up a chair and listen to what's happened to me in the last week or two!

Been a bit eventful I must say! Since I last wrote Ive lost my job. Well say lost, I actually resigned. Was a bit of a shock as I have worked for the holiday village, on and off, for about 7 years. It all started a couple of weeks ago when I very stupidly confided in a colleague that I was looking for another job! Never do that! I repeat never do that! Even if you think you know the person really well!! I asked her to swap shifts with me as I had applied to a local school for Specials Needs Assistant and the interviews were to be held on 18th september, a Friday. She works all day on a Thursday and I did Fridays so it was simple we just swapped. Anyway, I didnt get the interview! I never found out until the Thursday so I couldnt swap back. So I took the opportunity to go visit my Mum and Dad. Very silly of me then to put 'looking forward to seeing my mum and dad tomorrow' as my status on facebook!! (oh, and the explanation I gave to my boss for swapping shifts was that I had to take boys up to London!)

Anyway, we gets to Monday and Im called in to the office to discuss my hours! Anyway, my boss asks me about Friday. Where were you really as if you swap shifts with someone you should be truthful as to why or they wont do it again! So I said I took boys to London then went to see my Mum and Dad. My boss said well it doesnt fit as lots of people saying you are doing different things. She then preceded to tell me that she didnt think I could cope with my work, especially when its busy in the mornings! I was devastated as I think of myself as a very efficient worker and consider myself highly intelligent! She then said that my hours could not change and I had to work afternoons and every other Saturday, I had no choice. (She had changed my hours a few weeks ago, by letter just before she went on holiday and not face to face!).

Anyway, on said Monday I had to work til 6.00pm - people were arriving for their holidays. I was not myself, I let down by my co-worker for spilling beans to my boss as co-worker had obviously seen my status on facebook then moaned about me to the boss. She knew that I was looking for a job but she still did it! Also that I wasnt very good at my job! Gosh are you still with me? Not sure I am! Anyway part two will follow - Im worried that this isnt going to save. Laine xxxxxx

It really is me!

Yikes!!! I havent been in here for sooooo long!!! I feel good to be here!

When times change in my life I seem to come back here! I really dont know why I stopped writing! It has never been the same since AOL times! But thats not really a good enough excuse! I feel like Ive come back to a long lost friend. A friend that knows you will always come back and doesnt get moody coz youve been doing other things.

Facebook! It seemed to take me over for a while! Ive got over that now. I only visit it from my iphone now! I dont do the app things and I dont play Bejewelled as much. In other words I dont have to rely on Facebook anymore! Phew!!! For one minute I thought that I had an addiction! May be I did!! Coz everytime I turned on the computer I was compelled to press that Facebook icon every bloody time! Sometimes I would just stare at it and wait for something to happen! I ended up hating it. I do hate it! But I like to just now and then see how people are. I now refuse though to tell the whole world about what's going on in my house. It's somehow better here! Here is where I should be! I actually went for 4 weeks without even switching my laptop on! I didnt miss it! I dont need it! iphone though - needed!! That novelty not yet worn out!

How are you all then? What you been up to? Im soooooooooo looking forward to eventually catching up with some of ya!!! Be warned though I could disappear again! I dont even know what Im going to do myself!

I mentioned a change in my life! Well Im hoping a change is going to occur! Im looking for a job in a school. Ive applied for one already and am applying for four more!!! The one I have already applied for, which Im waiting eagerly for an interview date, is at a school thats right next door to the boys school. Thats for a Teaching Assistant and Play Leader. 9.00 to 3.00 every day! Then the other four are all with SEN children. The one I really really want is a job with a child on the Autistic Spectrum and an child with speech and communication disabilities. Its at a lovely little village school and I know the teacher so it would be brill!!! fingers crossed!!!!

My present job has changed. My hours have changed and I wasnt really consulted about it. I do really horrible hours and have to work on a Saturday once a fortnight too which Im not impressed with at all! Its time for me to leave there and get on with the career I have wanted for so long, to become a teacher.

Anyways, Im gonna read a bit of my book before bed! Its actually 1.40am in the morning and I really cant sleep so thats why Im here! My book is fantastic and I recommend it! The Book Thief by Markus Zusak!

Night xxxxx

Ages

It's ages since I posted in here! I wonder if anyone is still here? Are you here? I know that you might be! I feel the journal thing is like going by the by. Im certainly not posting as much as I did. Over a month since I last posted.

In the time I've been away my Mum has had cancer in her colon and that nasty cancer has been taken away! She had her operation last week and it was the size of an apple! She is on the mend now and recovering really well. Its a wonder what they can do now and that this cancer was found in time before it spread! They assure us that there is no more cancer left. phew!

I think facebook is the culprit. I spend alot of time on facebook and hence why I dont come in here anymore.

Ive got a new laptop! It's shiny and new it is! Im still having trouble getting used to it though! Its a Dell Inspiron and it's cherry red!! Gawjuss!!! It's bloomin vista though! Im used to xp and I miss my xp!! I dont like this vista, it keeps doing things that I dont know what its doing kind of thing!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Laine x

Sad

Im sad and you are who I turn to. I need to talk to you my lovely journal friends.

Im worried at the moment. Im worried for my Aunty Pat, who is 79 and has just found out that the main arteries to her heart are bad, well one is not good anymore at all and the other is in a really bad state. At 79 the thought of open heart surgery is very scary and because she had deep thrombosis in her legs before the the veins cant be used from her legs. She has not had a lot of luck with heart procedures in the past. The last time they went in through the top of her thigh they ripped the line out and left her with a really bad infection that lasted 6 months. There are a few options for her but she keeps looking at all the negatives. It would be a big thing for her to have open heart surgery and very hard to recover from. The doctor said that he will look at using a vein from her arm or going in through the vein at the top of her leg like last time. She goes back to the surgeon next week to discuss the options. She is my Mum's sister and my mum will go with her.

But, my mum has a worry of her own. She has hidden it from me lately but she has had a colonoscopy or whatever you call it and they have found a growth in her colon. She she will have to have an operation. They say it is treatable. Im worried for both my Mum and my Aunty. My Mum's heart isnt the healthiest of hearts either, she has had angina attacks in the last two years.

Just wanted to share this with you.
Laine xxxxx

Bejewelled Tuesday!

Firstly, I have a bone to pick with a certain Sara Sara, where are you Sara Sara? Now come on out behind that comfy chair!! Come on! You know what you has done dont you! Well she has only gone and beaten my top score in Bejewelled!!! So Sara Sara your not allowed to play it anymore, ok? Just til I gets to beat your score anyways LOL!!! Im only jealous!!! hee hee

Has anyone read any of James Patterson's books. Im thinking of getting his new one. Can't remember what its called though, 8th Confessions or something like that. Saw it advertised in London today.

Yes, the boys and I went up to London today for their check up at the London College Hospital. Sam is doing amazingly well and has grown 12cms in the last year! Joe's growth has slowed down a bit so they are going to sort out a new dose for him. They both had to have bloods done and were brave as usual! They kinda used to it by now. Joe's been having bloods and tests all his life! But he still gets scared - dont blame him though.

After the hospital we went to Covent Garden - it was really buzzing there! I dont like the crowds though - the people get on my nerves. Im forever scowling at people for being so rude! I dont do crowds! And nobody smiles anymore!! The best bit of Covent Garden was the street entertainers, there everyone is smiling - they are brilliant. Sam and Joe loved them. Then we walked down to Trafalgar Square and then to Charing Cross where we got our train. I really know that part of London now quite well so can get myself around easily. Sam wanted to go to the Science museum but Joe didnt. So Im going to take Sam up there another day, just the two of us.

I need you all to send me your email addresses in readiness for me going private. My email is elainey2465@aol.com. Most of you know that already but just in case some dont. I think I do need your email to add you to my private list. I will go private in a bout a week's time.

Laine xxxx