Wednesday, 7 October 2009

Oh what a day!!!

Hey everyone!! Im doing a hen tree - I am coz Sara said I shud!

I got me a new job today!!! Yay I did!! A beautiful lil country village school and they want me!! Me!!!! Whoooooo! Im so pleased!

I had the interview this morning - first of all two lovely children took me round on a tour of the school - I so enjoyed it. They were fantastic kids! Then I had to sit with a group of children, one being the little boy I will be supporting and we did an activity together for about ten minutes! The little boy that I will be working with tried to give me a kiss when I left him!! AWWWWW!!
Then I had the interview, lots of questions to answer and I was able to answer them all! I was so so nervous though and my mouth went dry. They kindly had water readily available - I thought that was nice - never known that before at an interview - coz your mouth does go dry with nerves!

It's such a lovely school - it's a teacher's dream of a school! It's only got about 20 children in each class and only has four classes! Its a very old victorian school and it is run by Church of England and the lovely church is just opposite the school. The school hall is the village community hall! It's just so lovely!

I know the teacher too! She is really lovely and I worked with her at Robsack Wood - and my boys had her as a teacher when they were little - they love her too! She said I was her first choice and that she has never seen little Callum try to kiss anyone before - she said that he has chosen me too!

I will be looking after two little boys - I didnt meet the other boy - he has autism, Callum has speech and language, communication problems. Awwwww he was lovely. Im so so pleased! I am, I am!!!

Oh, and I have a new hair do!!!!

Laine xxxxx

Monday, 28 September 2009

Part two - job loss

Anyway, what was I saying. Oh yeah, right so here I am at the office on my own as everyone else had gone home, feeling very sorry for myself. Anyway, I got packed up pretty early and I left the office just before six, or so I thought! I did meet some visitors in the car park and took them to the bar. They were happy enough. I was just glad to get home and tell John all about my horrible day.

So we get to Tuesday. My boss wasnt there when I arrived and she had left me a really long complicated booking to do. Probably to see if I could cope with it or not! Anyway, on her desk was a not to say I had left at 5.45pm the night before. I put a little yellow sticky on saying, I left at two minutes to six with an exclamation mark. Oh dear, I was in trouble again. Then I said out loud to Gill, I think it's get at Laine week! Then I felt a bit fed up and kept makng mistakes. Some Sales guy phones up and actually got me to stupidly buy labels for the franking machine, I thought that the franking machine had some sort of service where we got the labels! When the invoice came in on the fax I was like, yikes! Ive been taken in by the sales guy. So I immediately rang them back to cancel and guess what???? The office was closed! What a surprise! Anyway, I faxed back the company and asked them to cancel the order. Then I left it on another colleagues desk so they could see what I had done the next morning.

So Wednesday morning comes! Im at my cleaning job and my mobile goes, it's my boss. The gentleman I clean for said use my phone Laine and phone her back. Well, she let rip into me didnt she!! She had a go at me for leaving early on the Monday, apparently everything went wrong and she had to be called and I was in big trouble. She told me I was unprofessional and people were still arriving and I shouldnt have left early! I said, sorry I wasnt myself, I didnt realise the time, she said to me that's something a child would say! She then told me off for leaving the note for Gill about the labels order! I said I didnt leave it for her to do - I left it to inform her what I had done. Then I had a lecture about how we shouldnt be taken in by Sales guys, etc. etc. She then said that I was out of order for texting the other co-worker regarding the misunderstanding about the swapped shifts etc. I was then told that the office wasnt a playground and that Im not to gossip. Im to stop messaging people. Im to stop talking to house-keeping and that I had said stuff that she had told me in confidence. She said she couldnt trust me anymore!! Honestly, thats not all of it! It goes on and on!!

When I came off the phone I was in floods of tears and shaking! How dare she speak to me like that! Fair enough I had made mistakes. Oh and remember I had said I think its get at Laine week, well that was reported back to her!

Anyway, I talked and talked to John about it and my friends. I was going to go back in on the Friday and just ignore it all. But on the Thursday I broke down - I was shaking and I couldnt eat.
I could not go back there! Not after all that was said. And what if another interview came up. How would I go and I didnt want to go through all that again! So I phoned up HR Manager, I couldnt talk as I was too upset. But John took the phone and he spoke instead. We sent in my letter of resignation and it said that my position in the office had become untenable. And as for my notice I was ill!

I really thought I would get a phone call from them. But nothing! Not a bean! So there you have it! Im out of work!

Phew! Sorry that was so long.

Laine xxxx

Here I am again

Here I am again! Bet you thought I wouldnt come back. Not sure whether to keep blogging or not! But hey whilst Im here pull up a chair and listen to what's happened to me in the last week or two!

Been a bit eventful I must say! Since I last wrote Ive lost my job. Well say lost, I actually resigned. Was a bit of a shock as I have worked for the holiday village, on and off, for about 7 years. It all started a couple of weeks ago when I very stupidly confided in a colleague that I was looking for another job! Never do that! I repeat never do that! Even if you think you know the person really well!! I asked her to swap shifts with me as I had applied to a local school for Specials Needs Assistant and the interviews were to be held on 18th september, a Friday. She works all day on a Thursday and I did Fridays so it was simple we just swapped. Anyway, I didnt get the interview! I never found out until the Thursday so I couldnt swap back. So I took the opportunity to go visit my Mum and Dad. Very silly of me then to put 'looking forward to seeing my mum and dad tomorrow' as my status on facebook!! (oh, and the explanation I gave to my boss for swapping shifts was that I had to take boys up to London!)

Anyway, we gets to Monday and Im called in to the office to discuss my hours! Anyway, my boss asks me about Friday. Where were you really as if you swap shifts with someone you should be truthful as to why or they wont do it again! So I said I took boys to London then went to see my Mum and Dad. My boss said well it doesnt fit as lots of people saying you are doing different things. She then preceded to tell me that she didnt think I could cope with my work, especially when its busy in the mornings! I was devastated as I think of myself as a very efficient worker and consider myself highly intelligent! She then said that my hours could not change and I had to work afternoons and every other Saturday, I had no choice. (She had changed my hours a few weeks ago, by letter just before she went on holiday and not face to face!).

Anyway, on said Monday I had to work til 6.00pm - people were arriving for their holidays. I was not myself, I let down by my co-worker for spilling beans to my boss as co-worker had obviously seen my status on facebook then moaned about me to the boss. She knew that I was looking for a job but she still did it! Also that I wasnt very good at my job! Gosh are you still with me? Not sure I am! Anyway part two will follow - Im worried that this isnt going to save. Laine xxxxxx

Wednesday, 16 September 2009

It really is me!

Yikes!!! I havent been in here for sooooo long!!! I feel good to be here!

When times change in my life I seem to come back here! I really dont know why I stopped writing! It has never been the same since AOL times! But thats not really a good enough excuse! I feel like Ive come back to a long lost friend. A friend that knows you will always come back and doesnt get moody coz youve been doing other things.

Facebook! It seemed to take me over for a while! Ive got over that now. I only visit it from my iphone now! I dont do the app things and I dont play Bejewelled as much. In other words I dont have to rely on Facebook anymore! Phew!!! For one minute I thought that I had an addiction! May be I did!! Coz everytime I turned on the computer I was compelled to press that Facebook icon every bloody time! Sometimes I would just stare at it and wait for something to happen! I ended up hating it. I do hate it! But I like to just now and then see how people are. I now refuse though to tell the whole world about what's going on in my house. It's somehow better here! Here is where I should be! I actually went for 4 weeks without even switching my laptop on! I didnt miss it! I dont need it! iphone though - needed!! That novelty not yet worn out!

How are you all then? What you been up to? Im soooooooooo looking forward to eventually catching up with some of ya!!! Be warned though I could disappear again! I dont even know what Im going to do myself!

I mentioned a change in my life! Well Im hoping a change is going to occur! Im looking for a job in a school. Ive applied for one already and am applying for four more!!! The one I have already applied for, which Im waiting eagerly for an interview date, is at a school thats right next door to the boys school. Thats for a Teaching Assistant and Play Leader. 9.00 to 3.00 every day! Then the other four are all with SEN children. The one I really really want is a job with a child on the Autistic Spectrum and an child with speech and communication disabilities. Its at a lovely little village school and I know the teacher so it would be brill!!! fingers crossed!!!!

My present job has changed. My hours have changed and I wasnt really consulted about it. I do really horrible hours and have to work on a Saturday once a fortnight too which Im not impressed with at all! Its time for me to leave there and get on with the career I have wanted for so long, to become a teacher.

Anyways, Im gonna read a bit of my book before bed! Its actually 1.40am in the morning and I really cant sleep so thats why Im here! My book is fantastic and I recommend it! The Book Thief by Markus Zusak!

Night xxxxx

Friday, 15 May 2009


It's ages since I posted in here! I wonder if anyone is still here? Are you here? I know that you might be! I feel the journal thing is like going by the by. Im certainly not posting as much as I did. Over a month since I last posted.

In the time I've been away my Mum has had cancer in her colon and that nasty cancer has been taken away! She had her operation last week and it was the size of an apple! She is on the mend now and recovering really well. Its a wonder what they can do now and that this cancer was found in time before it spread! They assure us that there is no more cancer left. phew!

I think facebook is the culprit. I spend alot of time on facebook and hence why I dont come in here anymore.

Ive got a new laptop! It's shiny and new it is! Im still having trouble getting used to it though! Its a Dell Inspiron and it's cherry red!! Gawjuss!!! It's bloomin vista though! Im used to xp and I miss my xp!! I dont like this vista, it keeps doing things that I dont know what its doing kind of thing!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Laine x

Wednesday, 1 April 2009


Im sad and you are who I turn to. I need to talk to you my lovely journal friends.

Im worried at the moment. Im worried for my Aunty Pat, who is 79 and has just found out that the main arteries to her heart are bad, well one is not good anymore at all and the other is in a really bad state. At 79 the thought of open heart surgery is very scary and because she had deep thrombosis in her legs before the the veins cant be used from her legs. She has not had a lot of luck with heart procedures in the past. The last time they went in through the top of her thigh they ripped the line out and left her with a really bad infection that lasted 6 months. There are a few options for her but she keeps looking at all the negatives. It would be a big thing for her to have open heart surgery and very hard to recover from. The doctor said that he will look at using a vein from her arm or going in through the vein at the top of her leg like last time. She goes back to the surgeon next week to discuss the options. She is my Mum's sister and my mum will go with her.

But, my mum has a worry of her own. She has hidden it from me lately but she has had a colonoscopy or whatever you call it and they have found a growth in her colon. She she will have to have an operation. They say it is treatable. Im worried for both my Mum and my Aunty. My Mum's heart isnt the healthiest of hearts either, she has had angina attacks in the last two years.

Just wanted to share this with you.
Laine xxxxx

Tuesday, 31 March 2009

Bejewelled Tuesday!

Firstly, I have a bone to pick with a certain Sara Sara, where are you Sara Sara? Now come on out behind that comfy chair!! Come on! You know what you has done dont you! Well she has only gone and beaten my top score in Bejewelled!!! So Sara Sara your not allowed to play it anymore, ok? Just til I gets to beat your score anyways LOL!!! Im only jealous!!! hee hee

Has anyone read any of James Patterson's books. Im thinking of getting his new one. Can't remember what its called though, 8th Confessions or something like that. Saw it advertised in London today.

Yes, the boys and I went up to London today for their check up at the London College Hospital. Sam is doing amazingly well and has grown 12cms in the last year! Joe's growth has slowed down a bit so they are going to sort out a new dose for him. They both had to have bloods done and were brave as usual! They kinda used to it by now. Joe's been having bloods and tests all his life! But he still gets scared - dont blame him though.

After the hospital we went to Covent Garden - it was really buzzing there! I dont like the crowds though - the people get on my nerves. Im forever scowling at people for being so rude! I dont do crowds! And nobody smiles anymore!! The best bit of Covent Garden was the street entertainers, there everyone is smiling - they are brilliant. Sam and Joe loved them. Then we walked down to Trafalgar Square and then to Charing Cross where we got our train. I really know that part of London now quite well so can get myself around easily. Sam wanted to go to the Science museum but Joe didnt. So Im going to take Sam up there another day, just the two of us.

I need you all to send me your email addresses in readiness for me going private. My email is Most of you know that already but just in case some dont. I think I do need your email to add you to my private list. I will go private in a bout a week's time.

Laine xxxx

Sunday, 29 March 2009


Hello everyone, now how was your weekend. I know Sara Sara would have had a good one!! hee hee!! How about the rest of you?

I worked yesterday til five. It was very quiet yesterday, hence why I had time to write in my journal. It's nice when I can do that at work.

Today John was busy - he has decided to build a wall out the front! Don't even ask!!! He still hasnt finished the bathroom he started in July last year yet!!! Grrrrrr!!!! Oh well, enough said on that.

Anyway, I was feeling lonely so I phoned my friend Jane and asked if she was in for a cuppa and a chat. She was! Yay!! I went there at 12.30 (really 11.30 my body thought it was!). Then I had to pick Joe up in town at 2.00 so she and her son came with me. Her son Robert went off to the Sports Direct with Joe and Jane and I mused round the shops looking for craft ideas. We are both quite crafty, hee hee!!! We would both love to start up our own business making toys and stuff!! Awww it would be fab!! As, Hastings is Hastings, there wasnt much open and not much crafty stuff about. So we went into our ever favourite Waterstones and looked at the craft books. There is sooooooooooo much craft stuff to choose from!!! All this needlework stuff and making stuff made me yearn for a sewing machine again. Anyway, I gets home and tells John and he said why not buy one!! yay!!!! This is what I have in mind - so need your advice on which one is best - I dont have a big budget only want to spend about £150. It's a Brother ES2020 and it comes with lots of bits - click on the pic and see what you think!!!


Saturday, 28 March 2009


Does anyone know what the monetise button thingy does on the Dashboard!! OOOH does it mean that your blog will be like a Monet painting if you press it? Hee hee!!!

I haven't gotten around to privatising my blog yet but I will do. When I have time.

I am at work today and we are very bored as it is very quiet - but then suddenly it can go quite busy. I have been here since nine and I finish at five. Its only 2.30 now! The time seems to be going quite slowly here today!!

I felt quite poorly last night. Dont know if it was trapped wind or my IBS or what. But the pain was incredible. I was doubled over with it and didnt know what to do. Did I sit on the loo, did I lay down, did I walk about! I really didn't know what was best. In the end I just went to bed and rubbed my tummy til it calmed down. I think there was a fight going on in there - a really fisty cuffs fight and they must have been using knifes as well coz it did hurt lots!!!! Anyway those aliens seem to have gone out of my tummy today and its not so bad! Naughty aliens!

Sam and Joe had their guitar exams this morning. I phoned them to see how they got on and they said that they felt it was easy! So I hope they passed. I cant afford to send them to the next lot of ten lessons. So I am going to save up for them to start again in September. I really want them to be able to do what they love doing!

I might make a little bed under my desk in a minute and curl up and go to sleep! Do you think anyone would notice? hmmmm now where is the blanket?

Monday, 23 March 2009


Hmmmm I don't even know how to start today. This is probably going to go into a right load of waffle. I feel a bit wierd. I can't even put my finger on how I feel - just wierd! I'm thinking of making my journal private and choosing my readers. Only because I don't really get time to visit all the people who visit me and I don't want to give up my journal completely either. I also just want to keep it to a few - I'm not making sense am I! I don't even know what Im on about!

My pain has been bad. Very bad - I don't like it. It's so intermittent though. I can go all day with no pain at all and then suddenly it will appear in the evening. I can never work out what I do to make it bad. It's such a wierd thing - there is that word again, wierd, must be my word of the day. Last night was my worst for ages - its like someone has a red hot poker and they are gouging my foot out but like every ten seconds then it goes then it comes back. I took loads of tablets - all they did was make me feel drowsy this morning! If it carries on til the end of the week then I will go back to the Doctor. It's just that last time I was under the hospital they said there was nothing else they could do! I might have to go though as I don't think I can stand much more of it!

Wouldn't it be good to be complete happy. No worries, everything simple, no stress! I'd like to float on a fluffy white cloud and the sun would shine on me and make me feel all nice and warm. I would float past other clouds and I would see Stuart, Sara, Mr B and Joany Joan and they would wave at me. We would have conversations and then just float on again. With no care in the world! Wouldnt that be nice.

Laine xxx
P.S. I saw Marley and Me and I sobbed and sobbed!

Thursday, 19 March 2009

Excited but in pain!

Well it's my own fault really. Shouldn't have given in and gone on quad bikes! It's irritated my bulging disc in my back and hence then irritated the nerve. It's not really, really bad but bad enough to be annoying and they sent me home from work as they could see it was annoying me. Well my own fault - I won't be doing anything like that again now will I!!! Grrrr I hate it that my body restricts me doing things that everybody else seems to be able to do with no problem!! By the way all my facebook buddies dont mention my back on facebook my Dad wont be best pleased!!! Thats the trouble with facebook people you dont want to know stuff find out stuff!!

Now I am sort of excited. Well Im very excited actually. What it is John and I decided to book tickets to go see Take That at Wembley. but, we have booked a hotel package as we couldnt get hold of tickets any other way. They are all sold out!! But the hotel packages arent sold out! John was a bit worried about booking as he could lose his job anyday now. I was like well if we dont book it now we never will and life is too short to not do these things! Bit extravagant really! I'm really excited but I then I feel guilty because we can't really afford it. But, John and I both really love Take That and we havent got anything else to look forward to. Anyway on 4th July we will be raving away at the Take That concert in Wembley stadium!!! Can't believe it!!!!!!! I think it is going to be an incredible show! And, the hotel, wow the hotel is The Grosvenor in London!!! whooooooo!! Awwwwww Im glad we have booked it - too much doom and gloom at the moment so it's nice to have something to look forward to!!

Laine xxxxx

Wednesday, 18 March 2009

Quad Biking!!!!

Well I did it!! It was absolutely terrifying but I did it! I feel quite proud of myself! I was the slowest and I held everyone up. It was so scary though - I kept thinking I was going to come off all the time! I even refused at one point to go down a really steep hill that led into a big ditch and then you had to come out of the ditch and full throttle up the other side which was very muddy indeed. The guide came and talked me through it and I did it! But I didnt think I would.

Tuesday, 17 March 2009


Hmmmm just got a letter from the school - Sam is not doing enough work for his photography GCSE - how do you motivate 15 year olds! I thought he was ok - he kept bringing a camera home from school - he kept borrowing mine and he assured me he was doing homework. I get a letter today from his tutor to say that he isnt doing enough work and he is very behind!

He is also very behind with other subjects too - I keep on at him all the time. I ask him if he has homework - I can't physically get hold of him and make him do it!

Do I stop him going out? Do I ground him? John says that won't do any good - if he's not motivated he won't do it and he can only help himself - all I can do is encourage him. I think I will ban him from the computer this week - and he is forever texting his friends. That's what 15 year olds do! Why they make them do so many GCSEs so early I dont know! It used to be in the last year of school - now they start them at 14! My Joe starts his next year too! I must say though that my Joe is much more motivated and gets on with things.

I'm worried about Sam - help!!!!!!!!

Laine xxxx

Monday, 16 March 2009


Had a great weekend.

Met up with Emma (step-daughter) yesterday, John, Chris and I. We went to a nice little pub just outside Maidstone. And hour and half it took for food to arrive!! Grrr They did say it would be a long time! But and hour and a half for ploughmans! Grrrrrr

Went to work today. Had a good morning. Heard today that we have to try out quad bikes on Wednesday! We are now having quad bikes and archery and laser quest. I cant wait to try them all out!! You see we cant sell them to our guests unless we have done it ourselves!! yay!!!!!

Oscar had a lovely birthday - he loves his new toy - will try post a pic of it soon before he rips it to shreds!

Im off now to have apple crumble that Joe made at school. Wish me luck!

Laine xxxx

Saturday, 14 March 2009


Hello everyone,

Thanks so much for all visiting me and welcoming me back to Journals.

This week was a really good week. It was good to start back at Crowhurst Park, it was good to start back at Creative Writing and it was good to feel like me again!

Even John and I became alot closer again this week. We had drifted apart a bit just lately. Not in a bad way. I always love him dearly, he always loves me dearly. But we had both been tired, full of colds and stressed with work and our relationship seemed to come last. It's not good when it gets like that. I think he doesnt want me, he thinks I dont want him. Its silly! Why do we do that? Of course we want each other! Still, we had lots of cuddles this week and lots of talking and we are ok again. I think relationships are hard and you have to work on them even when you love each other dearly! We are going to make sure we keep cuddling - nothing like a cuddle to make you feel better!

This morning Im chilling out, reading a new book. It's a real easy going book - a Marian Keyes book - she is really light-hearted, chatty and funny. Sometimes I like reading books like that, the one's that you could almost read it all in one sitting. My brain doesnt have to work too much!

I bought a new game for my DS, Millionheir, I dont think I like it. Well I keep playing it and hoping something different will happen but it doesnt. You have to look for clues to solve a mystery. Its just that! Thats all you do is search for things. I much prefer Professor Layton because that is more challenging for my brain!

My doggy is 7 today!!! Bless him, Happy Birthday Oscar.

Wednesday, 11 March 2009


I'm happy.

I like my job. Everyone welcomed me back with opened arms.

I can now appreciate how good my job is having worked somewhere else. I think that that is a gift to be able to have the chance to appreciate what you have.

Today is my day off. I am going out for a walk with my dog and my best friend this morning. The sun is shining and I have creative writing class this afternoon.

I feel like I'm back to normal again!

Laine xxxxx

Sunday, 8 March 2009

This time Im back for good.

Hello! Do you remember me? It's been so long!

Marie commented on my blog and asked how I'm doing and I realised that I hadn't been writing for so long now and let you all know what's happening in my life. Well here we go ................

I finished at the CSA on Friday! yay!!! They gave me a lovely send off - a beautiful bouquet of flowers - and they had actually thought about my favourite colours, purples and pinks!! I was really touched as we are all temps and other people have left and had nothing. They really spoilt me. I also got chocolates and an Easter Egg!! I was sad to leave my friends, and some had become good friends, but I was not sad to leave the building or the job.

I go back to my old job tomorrow at Crowhurst Park. I will be a permanent member of staff which I have never been there before. I was always casual. It will be so much better to be permanent and have a proper contract. Much more secure for a start, but then is any job secure these days.

I will only be working 13 hours a week - Mondays 9am-1pm, Tuesdays 1.30pm-5.00pm and Fridays 9am-2pm. I have also got lots of overtime hours too so I will be doing more hours throughout April. Still its a good start and I will be happy there!! I also know they have missed me so I will be welcomed back! Its good when you know your wanted!

My new car - I cant remember if I told you that I had a crash and my poor car was written off. Still I was ok and the insurance has paid out - was very quick! Im now back on the road again wiht my lil red car - here she is and her name is Addy.

I loves my new car.
I hope you are all ok. I will be coming to find out how you all are. I do think of you and never forget you. So Im always here in spirit.
Laine xxx

Saturday, 21 February 2009

Normal Service will Resume Shortly.

Sorry - not good journaler at the mo.

Full-time job coming to end soon! Start at Crowhurst again on 9th March! Will only be working 13 hours - that is more human like! Then I will be back blogging - I promise!!! I do!

Had car crash on Wednesday - poor car a write off! Very sad about it but it is only metal! Going out to find another car now! Hate not having a car! Got to rely on other people - dont like doing that!

Anyway, just thought I would pop in and let you know I am still alive! When I am part-time again I will be back!

Laine xxxxx

Friday, 13 February 2009


The one night I decide to come back and try catch up with journals, the flippin AOL decides to go up the wall!! I went mad!! I looked at everything, the settings on my Internet Explorer, my router, my firewall settings - I defragged and I deleted temp internet files. I turned puter off, turned router off!!! Nearly threw it all in the garden!!!! Then it all suddenly came back again - never ever crossed my mind that it was actually AOL!!!!! Grrrrrrrr I forget I still got them!!! I don't use the software anymore but they still are my ISP!!! grrrrrrrrrrr again!!!

Hope you are all ok!! Bet you all forgot about me!! Alot of you I see on facebook which is really nice! I set up a group there for us journalers and Im so glad to see alot of you are using it! Really great to know that I made something useful!

I still don't like work! Pah!!! But Im getting there. Its temporary and its work - it pays the bills! I was off a couple of days this week - I was quite poorly - very very tired and headache and upset tummy.

Im still waiting to see if Crowhurst will have me back or not!!! The office manager really needs me but she is trying to convince her manager!!

It's my Dad's birthday today!!! Bless him!! Happy birthday Dad!

Valentine's day tomorrow! John and I had our Valentine's weekend away last weekend - we went to Stratford-upon-Avon. It was lovely. Have a look at my photos if you are on facebook. If you cant access facebook then let me know and I will post them on here next time!

The reason I havent been posting lately is that I am on a computer all day at work 8.36-5.00 everyday and when I get home I really dont want to be on the puter again! I flick onto facebook on my ipod touch and that doesnt feel like being on a computer - bit different!

Oh, you remember my friend Shelley. Well she is no longer my friend. She said that I was acting like a drama queen as I was moaning that I didnt like working full-time! She said 'I shouldn't be such a drama queen and WORK for a living! Well that's it! She then deleted me from her facebook! Saved me deleting her didnt it!!! 7 years of friendship deleted! Oh well.

Anway, I must go! Im sure there was other things I needed to say to you!

Laine xxxxx

Monday, 2 February 2009

Snow Monday

The kids are having a fantastic time today! Playing snowball fights, building snowmen and building the most fantastic snowball!!! Its brilliant to see them having fun! They cheered so loud this morning when the radio announced their school closed!! yay!!! I decided not to walk to work, its very slippery out there. My car cannot move anyway as I the battery is dead. One slip and my back would put me out of work for months so its not worth risking it.

Our heating is playing up!!! I just hope it doesnt go wrong now! We have a log fire burning though but not many logs left! OOOOOH I will stay in bed if it gets too cold!

My work situation at the moment is that I hate, absolutely hate working full time! I hate not being there for the kids. I know they are older now and don't need me so much, but I miss picking Joe up and his lovely little smile as he runs towards my car. He is only 13! A so-called friend of mine asked me the other day how I was doing at work. Remember Shelley with the Merc!! Hmmm well why I talk to her I dont know! She asked me how I was getting on and I said that I didnt like being full time and she couldnt understand why when I explained about the kids etc. (remember she has no kids and does not want kids). Her reply was 'Welcome to the real world!'. I was not happy, I felt hurt in fact! She does not have a clue! Still I won't be putting myself out to be friends with her again. That comment was hurtful.

I did hear from my old boss at Crowhurst Park last week. She said would I be interested in coming back there for 20 hours a week, It would be Monday mornings, Tuesday afternoons, Friday mornings and Sunday ten til four. I was a bit worried about doing Sundays but I was always used to working on a Saturday before. And, it will be so much better than working where I am!!! Crowhurst is a beautiful place to work and is a lovely job!!!! So I have agreed and I feel so much better now. I have just got to wait for it to be ok'd with the higher bosses there.

John and I have a hotel booked for next weekend. My boys are going away with their Dad so I have booked a hotel for the Saturday night at Stratford-upon-Avon. Im so excited!!!! We can see where Shakespeare lived and we can visit Warwick Castle. It will be very romantic, I cant wait!! Check out the link - it looks gorgeous!!!

My boys Dad has been mucking about with maintenance again. Really infuriating! He is behind with payments by two months now. He just went on holiday to Egypt and before he went he said that he had paid me but of course while he was gone I realised he had been lying! It is so annoying as I rely on getting the money and when it does not come in it really mucks up my finances big time - not only that the boys need things and their Dad is supposed to provide for them. The worse thing is that he promised Sam that he would pay for his guitar lessons and I have ended up paying for them as he said he cant afford to pay it yet! Great! So without maintenance I have had to subsidise his promise too! I have now applied for attachement of earnings and put an enforcement upon him for payment. Dont like having to do it but needs must!

I hope you are all keeping warm in this cold weather xxxxxxxxxx

Monday, 26 January 2009

A long time

OOOOH Its a long time since I posted!

So sorry!

I hope you are all ok and I will try and visit you soon. I'm on a computer all day at work and it's the last thing I want to do when I get in - I'm reading more in the evenings now.

I have finished all my exams and I don't have to study so I read! And I love it!

I'm not really liking this full-time business its meh (as Sara would say) I hope you dont mind me borrowing your meh word Sara Sara! It's just such a long week! No jobs get done at home! It all has to be done at the weekend. I really enjoy my weekends now though!

I'm looking for a part-time job - I would much prefer part-time hours. Then I can be there for my boys!

Anyway Im waffling now and my shoulder is starting to ache from the typing! It aches all day at that bloomin office! meh!

Laine xx

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

Thank you

Thank you all for visiting me, especially when I've been totally rubbish at visiting you! I'm just so so tired when I get in from work, and I've been looking at a computer all day too! So the last thing I want to do when I get home is look at the puter again!

I'm particularly tired today because I didnt sleep very well last night. Cant have a nap during the day now! hmmmph!

The day went quite quick today! I thought it would be slow but I was quite surpised. We are very busy though. We have loads of work to do. I likes being busy!

Anyway, Im off now just wanted to say Hi.

Love Laine xx

Sunday, 11 January 2009

A full time week's work done and Im a working Mum (ooh that ryhmes)

Hello all,

Well I have now completed a whole week full-time for the first time since before I had my kids!

It was a bit wierd at the beginning of the week as we just had to sit and shadow other people whilst we were waiting for our own computers. It was a bit boring doing that! There is nothing like getting stuck in and doing stuff for yourself.

Anyway, on the Wednesday we were put with a young guy named Matt, he is only 22 but lovely! Cindy and I (my new friend :0) ) sat with him and he taught us so much stuff. It was really good! I really enjoyed it! Then on Thursday we had our own desks and computers! We are opposite Matt and another guy called Luke (also in his early twenties). They are fantastic guys - really helpful and so funny. We can banter and chat and still get on with our work. The loud lot are over the overside of the room so that's good! It is a very friendly office, well the part we are in is.

I have made some lovely friends. Cindy, Georgie, Matt, Luke, Martin, Liz and lots of others!

My best friend Carol works there too on a different department and I have been able to see her at lunchtimes and Cindy knows her too so thats good. Cindy, Georgie and I all go to lunch together every day. Georgie is lovely, she is only 20 and she is such a sweet little thing. She is 16 weeks pregnant and I think Cindy and I will mother her! LOL Cindy is older than me she has sons that are in their thirties.

I've got my own batch of work now. Cindy and I are sharing numbers. We have a database and we phone up employers to try and find our clients. Im so happy! I love it!

We were a bit disappointed on Friday though coz I line manager, Reg, (whose name really is Dave! lol) said it would be ok if we worked early and finished early as long as we got all our hours in the week. So we were starting at 8 and finishing at 4, only taking half hour lunch. This was brilliant as I was getting home early and could sort the dinner out early. But, some people on the other team in the other end of the office complained that were were all going early and now Reg said that we have to work our proper hours 8.36 to 5!!! We were all very annoyed about that. Especially the ones that live far away and it means that they get home so late! Also alot of us arrive early anyway because of traffic and bus times. Anyway, Cindy is going to make us a huge chocolate cake to cheer us up tomorrow, I likes Cindy!

My next door neighbour, Mary Jane, works there too and she is quite high up. She came round last night with her hubby and son for a lovely evening of playing Buzz. I chatted to her about my job and she said it sounds like I am getting on well and that I should get on well.

I cant tell you too much about what I do as it is a Government Agency. We do very confidential work. I feel all important lol!

Anyway, off I go before I bore you all. Im sure I will have lots of stories to tell next week.

I have my module 2 science exam on Thursday! So I have the day off work. I've not done any revising as Ive been so tired. oh dear!

Laine xxxxx

Monday, 5 January 2009


I never thought I'd get an entry in today. My phone has been beeping all night! Loads of things going on - it feels like that anyway!

Had my first day at work. If you can call it that! Well we waited til 10am before we were taken to our stations! 8 of us started today and we were put amongst other Manpower workers. (Temps!) All working for the CSA but employed by Manpower. Anyway, they had no desks for us and we couldnt log on to the system. So we each sat with someone all day and watched them work. Well 'work' in the sense that they were supposed to be working but they didnt really do much - they all chatted to us all day! The line manage never even said anything. Now I have been out of the rat race for 16 years now and is this what it has come to!! Crikey when I worked in an office all them years ago you wouldnt say boo to a goose, you kept your head down and when the boss came in, you at least looked busy even if you wasnt!! CRikey am I getting old!!!!!

Anyway, the work itself is mind numbingly boring!! It's just making phones calls all day long and changing stuff on the data base! So should be easy when we eventually get a computer! We didnt get any door passes, or car park passes! So I have to park out on the road tomorrow! hmmph.#

Anyway, to top it all my poor Joe got really poorly tonight. He has a sore throat and a sky high temperature!! I can't believe it! I can't miss my second day at work!!! Anyway, luckily my friend is going to pop in on him at lunchtime. As John is out all day! Only day two and my baby needs me - how can I work fulltime? He is 13 I know but still my baby and poorly! I really dont want to leave him tomorrow. I was considering Sam staying home from school to look after him but I cant do that! grrrrrrrrrrrrr its horrible!!!

Hugs to my Stuart coz he needs them too.

Laine xxx

Saturday, 3 January 2009

Happy New Year

Happy New Year all. Hope you are all well and had a good Christmas and a good New Year.

I have been so ill over christmas with a horrible, horrible cold! But it's going now but I still have this very annoying cough and blow my nose all the time!! Surely I can't have anything left inside my head!!

I am starting a full-time job on Monday - I have a job with the agency, Manpower, it's at the C.S.A. in Hastings (Child Support Agency) and its for 3 months. I will be there Mon-Frid all day - eeeeeeeeeek. Not done that for about 16 years!!! So it will be hard! The boys will have to walk to and from school and I will have to get someone to look after Oscar or I will pop home at lunch time. I will miss meeting my friends and having coffees after the school runs but the money will be so welcome. We need me to work full-time now. I can still do a PGCE (teaching cert.) one day! Anyway, this is only temporary! Something might come from it though, you never know!

I will try and come visit you all soon. So sorry.

Laine xxxx