Hmmmm I don't even know how to start today. This is probably going to go into a right load of waffle. I feel a bit wierd. I can't even put my finger on how I feel - just wierd! I'm thinking of making my journal private and choosing my readers. Only because I don't really get time to visit all the people who visit me and I don't want to give up my journal completely either. I also just want to keep it to a few - I'm not making sense am I! I don't even know what Im on about!
My pain has been bad. Very bad - I don't like it. It's so intermittent though. I can go all day with no pain at all and then suddenly it will appear in the evening. I can never work out what I do to make it bad. It's such a wierd thing - there is that word again, wierd, must be my word of the day. Last night was my worst for ages - its like someone has a red hot poker and they are gouging my foot out but like every ten seconds then it goes then it comes back. I took loads of tablets - all they did was make me feel drowsy this morning! If it carries on til the end of the week then I will go back to the Doctor. It's just that last time I was under the hospital they said there was nothing else they could do! I might have to go though as I don't think I can stand much more of it!
Wouldn't it be good to be complete happy. No worries, everything simple, no stress! I'd like to float on a fluffy white cloud and the sun would shine on me and make me feel all nice and warm. I would float past other clouds and I would see Stuart, Sara, Mr B and Joany Joan and they would wave at me. We would have conversations and then just float on again. With no care in the world! Wouldnt that be nice.
P.S. I saw Marley and Me and I sobbed and sobbed!