Monday, 23 March 2009

Monday

Hmmmm I don't even know how to start today. This is probably going to go into a right load of waffle. I feel a bit wierd. I can't even put my finger on how I feel - just wierd! I'm thinking of making my journal private and choosing my readers. Only because I don't really get time to visit all the people who visit me and I don't want to give up my journal completely either. I also just want to keep it to a few - I'm not making sense am I! I don't even know what Im on about!

My pain has been bad. Very bad - I don't like it. It's so intermittent though. I can go all day with no pain at all and then suddenly it will appear in the evening. I can never work out what I do to make it bad. It's such a wierd thing - there is that word again, wierd, must be my word of the day. Last night was my worst for ages - its like someone has a red hot poker and they are gouging my foot out but like every ten seconds then it goes then it comes back. I took loads of tablets - all they did was make me feel drowsy this morning! If it carries on til the end of the week then I will go back to the Doctor. It's just that last time I was under the hospital they said there was nothing else they could do! I might have to go though as I don't think I can stand much more of it!

Wouldn't it be good to be complete happy. No worries, everything simple, no stress! I'd like to float on a fluffy white cloud and the sun would shine on me and make me feel all nice and warm. I would float past other clouds and I would see Stuart, Sara, Mr B and Joany Joan and they would wave at me. We would have conversations and then just float on again. With no care in the world! Wouldnt that be nice.

Laine xxx
P.S. I saw Marley and Me and I sobbed and sobbed!

14 comments:

Sara said...

I just logged in to blogger to write a post and say that I'm going private too, for the same reasons you have. I saw that you'd posted though, so thought I'd come have a read here first. See, you're not wierd, 'cause that would mean that I am wierd too. Or maybe we are both wierd, but a cool kind of wierd ;o)

WIERD!

It's horrible that you're in so much pain :o(

xxx

Sara said...

PS... if you do go private, please please add me as a reader, and set up email alerts so's I know that you posted!
xxx

Sugar said...

sorry to hear your hurting. {{}}
if you go private, don't forget to send out emails ea time you post, as we won'y get your alerts on dashboard or reader.
much love to you, sending a prayer, hopnig your better soon.
huggies...

louise said...

Sorry about your pain, hope its better tonight so you can get a goodnights sleep. Dont forget me if you go private!! xxx

mortonlake said...

laine,im so sorry you are in so much pain,i know what its like,ive now got to go to hospital on friday about my back,theres no let up.if you do go private,thats up to you,but dont feel just because i comment on your blog,you have to on mine,i never mind.take care anyway,love mort xx

LYN said...

HOPE YOU KEEP ME...

Jeannette said...

If you do go private, please do not forget to include me. I miss you not visiting but I do like to keep up with yours.

Stuart said...

Going private is great! Go for it and we can float together

JCWillow99@gmail.com..( Cassie) said...

I am sorry you are in so much pain. Have they checked you for lupus or schlerderma? It sounds like something they just have not caught yet.

Missie said...

I sure hope you feel better soon. I can't imagine episodes of pain like that.

If you go private, i would you would include me!

lunarossa said...

I'm so sorry, Laine, that you are in such terrible pain. I've been and I sometimes am still and it's terrible. Especially when pain-killers don't help...I'm giving a try at alternative medicine at the moment...fingers crossed! The only problem is that NHS won't pay for it...I you go prive I'd like to join your network if possible. Look after youself. Ciao. Antonella

Ally Lifewithally said...

Laine I am so sorry you are in so much pain ~ I too would like to be added if you do go private ~ Ally x

Connie said...

Geez-I just posted that I think I'll quit blogging altogether..must be that time of year blahs...LOVE the pic of your boys on the 4 wheelers..can't wait to get mine out and zoom-zoom.

Sonya said...

I had to downsize and since I did I actually read more blogs. lol. I bookmarked 8 blogs to read and that is it. The rest I visit if I get those 8 read and have time. It was supposed to be 5 but I could not narrow it down. I am finding now I can get a lot more read once my favorites were taken care of an all in one place. Good luck!