Wednesday, 17 November 2010


I phoned docs and tried to get in earlier, the earliest I can get in is Monday, better than waiting for Tuesday I suppose.

I know there is more I need to say to her but I dont know how. As soon as I go in there I clam up and I had written it all in my diary but she didnt read it properly! Im a bit concerned about the anxious feelings I have all the time.

Its good to talk about it, I feel that that is helping. But I still worry about stuff, about when shall I go back to work. That there is a school trip next week and if I dont go back I'm letting my little boys down. I promised them I'd be with them on that trip :0(.

There is so much I need to do.

I need to get back into reading, at the moment I cant concentrate to read for long. I was at a coffee shop today with a paper and I couldnt finish an article. Its hard to stay focused on one thing for long.

I need to get the spare room sorted out. So much washing there and so much junk you would not believe! Actually the whole house needs sorting.

I need to look after myself a bit better. I dont bother showering most mornings. I have a wash (Im not smelly!) but I dont look after myself like I used to.

I need to stop worrying about other people so much, I take on everyone's problems and have so many friends that need me. I cant do that anymore, not for a little while anyway.

I need to cuddle John more. He is being neglected and I do love him.

I need to stop worrying about my boys. I feel that Sam is lieing to me all the time and I dont trust him one bit.

Ive got to eat better. Ive not got the best appetite at the moment and I burp all the time! All the time! Its embarrassing!!

Ive got to walk more with Oscar and build his walking up so his leg gets better. He is getting better bless him and his walks can increase now.

Basically Ive got to stop worrying and as Ma says Ive got to start looking at the positives!

Yes that's what I'll do.


Stuart said...

the burping is probably a side effect of the anxiety.

Now here is what I do when I have lots to tell the the Dr. I write it out as bullet points.

And then revise and order as appropriate and then take the note in to surgery with me explain I have it and then go through the list.

The Dr will appreciate that level of organising your symptoms.

They can only diagnose with what you present to them.....

So take your time and get it all down to a short precis and a list, take it on Monday, she will listen and then pick up on what she thinks is medically relevant.

lunarossa said...

I'm a very anxious type, Layne and I always worry. My GP knows and he's always been rather supportive. But, as ther NHS is what it is and I fear it will get worse with all these cuts, it's good for to be firm and decisive with your doctor. You need them as much as they need you to live. Without us patients they won't have a job. Making a list is a very good idea, just don't be shy to give it to them and keep on going if they don't want to listen. Lots of hugs. Ciao. A.

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

It sounds as though you are making headway there. It does help to write all down and sort things out. You really do have a lot of positives in your life and I like Stuarts suggestions of making a list for the doctor too. Great idea as you will not forget anything.

Sara said...

Lainey Laine, don't put too much pressure on yourself hon. It doesn't matter if the house is a mess, or if someone else has to go on the trip with your lads. Let all of the needs go for a little while and just be.

Good advice about taking a list with you to the doctors :o)


Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Pick one thing to accomplish each day, and focus on that.