I phoned docs and tried to get in earlier, the earliest I can get in is Monday, better than waiting for Tuesday I suppose.
I know there is more I need to say to her but I dont know how. As soon as I go in there I clam up and I had written it all in my diary but she didnt read it properly! Im a bit concerned about the anxious feelings I have all the time.
Its good to talk about it, I feel that that is helping. But I still worry about stuff, about when shall I go back to work. That there is a school trip next week and if I dont go back I'm letting my little boys down. I promised them I'd be with them on that trip :0(.
There is so much I need to do.
I need to get back into reading, at the moment I cant concentrate to read for long. I was at a coffee shop today with a paper and I couldnt finish an article. Its hard to stay focused on one thing for long.
I need to get the spare room sorted out. So much washing there and so much junk you would not believe! Actually the whole house needs sorting.
I need to look after myself a bit better. I dont bother showering most mornings. I have a wash (Im not smelly!) but I dont look after myself like I used to.
I need to stop worrying about other people so much, I take on everyone's problems and have so many friends that need me. I cant do that anymore, not for a little while anyway.
I need to cuddle John more. He is being neglected and I do love him.
I need to stop worrying about my boys. I feel that Sam is lieing to me all the time and I dont trust him one bit.
Ive got to eat better. Ive not got the best appetite at the moment and I burp all the time! All the time! Its embarrassing!!
Ive got to walk more with Oscar and build his walking up so his leg gets better. He is getting better bless him and his walks can increase now.
Basically Ive got to stop worrying and as Ma says Ive got to start looking at the positives!
Yes that's what I'll do.